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10.10.2020

 Mental Health Day. For someone who thinks, feel and occasionally experience certain outburst or 'rough day' - I know this public awareness day can mean a variety of things to many; especially those who understands and experiences extreme 'mind moments'. I had one of those rough days today. I felt unhappy. Hopeless. Stuck where I don't wish to be. Thought of ways I shouldn't be ... yeah.  It hurts. Especially when your mind is clouded with so many thoughts and you are unsure who to trust and share with. I know for sure the slightest thing can trigger a more negative behaviour ... where you can lose control of your own mind and being. It feels like maybe-yes  you know what is going on, but certain thoughts are now in control of you and you wanted this thing for so long and did not get it or that you have been hooked on this thought(s) for so long and there is no other way to escape --- so it consumes you. I think I'm strong. But during that state, I feel as w
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My journey to learning React.js

 Day #1 (again ._.) What is react? React . js is an open-source JavaScript library that is  used  for building user interfaces specifically for single-page applications. ...  React  allows developers to create large web applications that can change data, without reloading the page. The main purpose of  React  is to be fast, scalable, and simple. [ www.c-sharpcorner.com › article › what-and-why-reactjs |  What and Why React.js - C# Corner ] Great! Just what I need it for :)  Focusing on three websites to learn: https://reactjs.org/tutorial/tutorial.html https://www.sololearn.com/Play/react https://www.w3schools.com/react/ A bit lost on this &+ to review : The React team primarily recommends these solutions: If you’re learning React or creating a new single-page app, use Create React App . If you’re building a server-rendered website with Node.js, try Next.js . If you’re building a static content-oriented website, try Gatsby . If you’re building a component library or integrating wi

Logotherapy and Grounding Techniques

Have you ever felt like there is no hope anymore? Like maybe, just maybe you had that one person who gave you hope but it is not the same anymore so you feel so scared, lost, meaningless without having anything to look forward to. Like you know when you put a lot of prayers, tears, effort, time ... everything, every part of you into something ... and then when you expect that thing to work; it does not? Instead of encouraging words, you get it mixed with your flaws. Have you ever felt stuck?  Like even though years have passed, nothing has changed. You have the same set of complains as you did many years ago.  And maybe you think that changing your environment might help you feel better but you have no means of fulfilling that. You are hopeless and helpless. Why would anything change for the better right now? Can you change anything? "Oh change yourself"  ... yeah, I've been trying to find ways and path to do that. Yet I feel so unsuccessful. There are small

Pandemic Update ~ About blogpost time

It has been a while since my last post. The world seems to be in chaos. A total standstill for all. I lost part of me within all of this. Some days are great, others aren't. Losing your sense of purpose is easy, especially when you are surrounded by lack of dreamers and believers. Your kind of temporary earthlings. But you are here, and that is truer than true. So to make the most of it, you have to fight the battle to overcome this level. The world, but most importantly, your inner circle can use some hope and kindness. And one of the purposes of this short life is to help as much as your energy can afford. Not forgetting, as an explorer and student ... you must always trend on the path of seeking knowledge. I just hope I can self-sustain myself. Have a sense of independence by the means of natural incoming resources for sustenance. Again, some days are better than the others. There is a sense of uncertainty for many. I tend to think that I do love the uncertainty princip

Retrospect

I hate being sick. I've never suffered from any major sickness but I often get sick with the flu or aches.  Currently, I am recovering from the flu and it brought me down to the point where I had to fight to remember its not permanent. I am thankful to the people that surrounds me - both physically and virtually. Even though sometimes I feel the environment I'm in, helps to contribute to my thinking that sickness means I should just stay MEH. Nevertheless, they love and care ~ I'll remember to say Thank You in my way. This morning I came across this beautiful comic by someone name Grant Sinder. I've always love the way artists can express themselves through such illustrations.  How cool is it to see one that relates to the purpose of this blog?! So many R's of Life! Check out his facebook page: Incidental Comic for more :) So apart from still realizing I'm still alive and I absolutely dread being sick - here's to a new day. Refocusin